Nothing to proud

After came back from Beijing, I feel a bit hard to get myself organise.
My place is in big mess! Well not that I am so clean before.... hehehe
I wonder how those working mum juggle with their time?
I guess I am too emphasis on my personal time most of the time until I neglected my surrounding.

I promise to myself I will not go out and play this Saturday just because I need to get my habitat in order!

Well.... we shall see about that.... hahaha still doubt on my this ambition.

Oh! work have been hectic since I just came back from my one week off.
1st Monday morning starting with scolding and lecturing my people.
Then start to make a big complaint to the building management on their rude personnel towards my staff.
Yup! I am one protective 'Big Sister' in office. Can't stand to see outsider bullying my staff!
Of course receive confrontation from the people I complaint when she was forced to apolorgy to our company and her superior scolded her. Well!!!! be nice to customer in future girl!!!!

Owwwhhh!!!! terrible monster...I am now!!!!

This morning received a short message in my inbox from my boss reading as ' Good Job Rina!!!'
Then I realise I got 'pat' on my back just because I am creating this game on settling this issue on his behalf and asked him to shut up and let me get the shooting in front on his behalf. Basically becoming his shield!!!!

Oh!!!! is this something I should proud off???
Hell 'Big' NO!!!!!
Who can be proud to die ?????

Why did I volunteer to handle this matter and ask him to pretend to people this is on my hand and he is innocent???
Well.... I know his style very well... he want me to settle yet when he interfere he definitely spoil the game and at the end if the problem is not solved, he will blame on me.
So this time .... MAN!!!! you shut up and listen.... stay behind me... let me solve this blunder for you 'Brother'!!!! hehehehe ..... yup!!! I am putting up a show here 'SISTER!!!'

Gosh!!!! I guess I am getting crazy over my work now!!!

Working hard to go Korea next year!!!! Or should I start saving up for Australia???? mmmmm.... later.... now need to work and work and work...

Beijing adventure photo..... my house computer seems like hating me for leaving him behind and refused to upload photos.... I will try again this Saturday....YO!!!!

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Continue living

Sleepless last night!
Think too much until my head feel wanna blow up.
I never experience this extreme pressure to myself.
Woke up and make myself cup of black coffee... sitting on my cozy sofa and continue thinking.
My mind is like computer with words coming through numbers and even a flash back to history on what I have done and how I should handle the situation... some with regret and some came up with sweet memory... many with sad one....Why I can't make my life simple like others?
Why I need to think so much? Ah! what make me think only me busy thinking??? I believe all of us did and most of us will come to this point!
All the why and why keep coming to my mind... and I realise it is already morning...ah! another day to go through... another additional day to my age...mmmmm my 40's is closing and coming nearer....

I feel I dont achieve my dream yet...

Living is pretty extreme and it is no joke.
After life preparation is critical because no 'u' turn and uncertain fate waiting for us!
Destiny is decided....we just need to works toward it!
Glory is a smile to your face..
Loosing is a cry to your heart...
Whatever we do in life... use our brain and find our ability to mould into good life with no regrets...
God is fair to person with strong faith and believe ......

Maybe right now I feel my life is uncertain and I am pushing myself to hard....
Hope God doesn't stop blessing me with perserverance attitude so I dont give up at this age.

I am coming to 37 years old. I only have 3 years left.
Do I need push myself to the limit this time?
Do I need to go all out and only give myself choice either live or die?
Too much choices will spoil us.
After thinking hard last night, I decided to choose live.
This time will be extreme pushing to myself and may hurt myself along the way.

I willing to give a try and if I live this world I will live with glory.
I dont want to live with this world without people knowing who I am.
I want people to inspire people.....

Praying hard and going all out towards my goal!

fighting.......:) glory glory glory.... another year coming

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