Will I be remembered

Once I heard this from a friend around 7 years ago...

Friend : Na! (she call me Na short form from Rina) I feel I am getting old.

Me : Why? You are just 26 years old!

Friend : I remember last year when I read newspaper I will start with Metro section page and then National then sports. But lately I started with Obituary. I hope not to see anybody I knew here.

I don't response to her at all but just stare at her with my blank face.

That time , all this doesn't make any sense to me.

But today, I can feel it!

I was reading the newspaper and then obituary section. Looking for the dead. The announcement from the love ones. I also hope I will never come across anybody I know in this section. Maybe my time will come soon....God want remind me to be a good lady and I am on the way to see him soon......

You never know. Maybe later? tomorrow ?or maybe next week? or next month? or next year? It can happen anytime he like to call me.

One post really touch to my heart and soul. It is on Daniel Jason Phua 1st year with Jesus and Mary. His loves one even post the blog address.

http://www.hello-son.blogspot.com/

I can't wait no more. The blog full of love from his loving family who are missing him deeply.

When I was reading the Daniel blog , I was holding my tears. I can feel the lost and the calmness of his family being depart from him. He is only 15 years old.

I pray for your soul happily in heaven and always be with the God.

Do I be remembered like how Daniel being remember?

Do I need to be remembered?

Suddenly I feel very down.... maybe because of my PMS. but I just feel sad and fear of death coming calling to me. Am I preapre enough? Not yet! not yet!... could angel of death hold on a little while. I still need prepare myself. Can I call you when I am ready? I dont think so..... OK ok I will live with it and try my best to get myself prepare when my time come. Hope you let me choose the easiest way. Thank you God for all your Bless!

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Continue living

Sleepless last night!
Think too much until my head feel wanna blow up.
I never experience this extreme pressure to myself.
Woke up and make myself cup of black coffee... sitting on my cozy sofa and continue thinking.
My mind is like computer with words coming through numbers and even a flash back to history on what I have done and how I should handle the situation... some with regret and some came up with sweet memory... many with sad one....Why I can't make my life simple like others?
Why I need to think so much? Ah! what make me think only me busy thinking??? I believe all of us did and most of us will come to this point!
All the why and why keep coming to my mind... and I realise it is already morning...ah! another day to go through... another additional day to my age...mmmmm my 40's is closing and coming nearer....

I feel I dont achieve my dream yet...

Living is pretty extreme and it is no joke.
After life preparation is critical because no 'u' turn and uncertain fate waiting for us!
Destiny is decided....we just need to works toward it!
Glory is a smile to your face..
Loosing is a cry to your heart...
Whatever we do in life... use our brain and find our ability to mould into good life with no regrets...
God is fair to person with strong faith and believe ......

Maybe right now I feel my life is uncertain and I am pushing myself to hard....
Hope God doesn't stop blessing me with perserverance attitude so I dont give up at this age.

I am coming to 37 years old. I only have 3 years left.
Do I need push myself to the limit this time?
Do I need to go all out and only give myself choice either live or die?
Too much choices will spoil us.
After thinking hard last night, I decided to choose live.
This time will be extreme pushing to myself and may hurt myself along the way.

I willing to give a try and if I live this world I will live with glory.
I dont want to live with this world without people knowing who I am.
I want people to inspire people.....

Praying hard and going all out towards my goal!

fighting.......:) glory glory glory.... another year coming

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Me without my smile

Me at almost 35 years old - still single and with career lead me to no where..:(

Interesting.. I was looking back at all my photos, this is the only photo without me showing my outstanding big front teeth..lol! even my mykad and passport photo can see my front teeth..

Look quite sad though.. yeah! this because I am going off to sit for exam right after the photo hehehe yeah ! still can take photo eh?

I just love doing all this crazy stuff to make me happy a bit. For this case I am sitting for my Competitve Strategy paper , you think I still can be showing my teeth??

Now since the exam is over.. I still can't enjoy my break period since my new study term starting. Very fast! I have 4 more papers to go..
I just downloaded my new subject online readings and maybe will print tomorrow.
My next class is next week.

I have been in a sleepless night these days due to doing too much of thinking.
Yeah! again me and my looking forward to the future.
Very nervous on what will happen next ...

How nervous I am waiting on what is my destiny is how nervous I am when I am waiting for my dominos pizza to be delivered to me just now.
Although I can just waited for half and hour , I end up open my door every 10 minutes. Afraid to miss my pizza due to my door bell not working :)

Yeah ! good dinner tonight due to just scold my bankers this afternoon. These days I found out, I need to use my firm voice and stern face to get thing done!
Not usual for me because I will only use that to the last and very very last resort.
I am normally prefer to solve the problem rather than make an enemy (make people feel hurt or uncomfortable). But hey! sometimes need to harsh to get thing done and teach them lesson.

I just can't stand people take me for granted!

Talking about my future I am now really firm on what I am putting myself into and just want to go ahead with it!
As how I made my decision to pursue my MBA this is how my decision towards this coming plan!

Jia You! Jia You! Rina ... I can do it!!!!

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3 days to go

I am so freak out right now!
3 days to go..
I am still in that usual day and night dreaming mood.
Everything seems to be not registered to my head!

Aishhhh!!!
I am so angry with myself.

HR here HR there but I seems to .. DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO???

And another week to go I have this CS coming up and Toyota Strategy to analyse!
Oucchhh!!!
I need to pinch myself hard and wake up from my dreaming mood.

Vow myself not to update my blog in another week!!!!

I will stay focus and study smart!!!

GOD BLESS ME!!!

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