Continue living

Sleepless last night!
Think too much until my head feel wanna blow up.
I never experience this extreme pressure to myself.
Woke up and make myself cup of black coffee... sitting on my cozy sofa and continue thinking.
My mind is like computer with words coming through numbers and even a flash back to history on what I have done and how I should handle the situation... some with regret and some came up with sweet memory... many with sad one....Why I can't make my life simple like others?
Why I need to think so much? Ah! what make me think only me busy thinking??? I believe all of us did and most of us will come to this point!
All the why and why keep coming to my mind... and I realise it is already morning...ah! another day to go through... another additional day to my age...mmmmm my 40's is closing and coming nearer....

I feel I dont achieve my dream yet...

Living is pretty extreme and it is no joke.
After life preparation is critical because no 'u' turn and uncertain fate waiting for us!
Destiny is decided....we just need to works toward it!
Glory is a smile to your face..
Loosing is a cry to your heart...
Whatever we do in life... use our brain and find our ability to mould into good life with no regrets...
God is fair to person with strong faith and believe ......

Maybe right now I feel my life is uncertain and I am pushing myself to hard....
Hope God doesn't stop blessing me with perserverance attitude so I dont give up at this age.

I am coming to 37 years old. I only have 3 years left.
Do I need push myself to the limit this time?
Do I need to go all out and only give myself choice either live or die?
Too much choices will spoil us.
After thinking hard last night, I decided to choose live.
This time will be extreme pushing to myself and may hurt myself along the way.

I willing to give a try and if I live this world I will live with glory.
I dont want to live with this world without people knowing who I am.
I want people to inspire people.....

Praying hard and going all out towards my goal!

fighting.......:) glory glory glory.... another year coming