Lost in myself

Questions and statements that I hate the most for these 2 months.
1. How are you doing?
2. So.. you new job better than previous?
3. No more working late hours ha?
4. Look like your earning is better than previous.
5. No more lecture and nagging?
6. Easy job ha this time?
7. You are doing high level job since you earn your Master?
and many more to list.

In real fact, I am currently lost my direction in life.
I am now like the brown leaf drop into the river and let the current to drag me to places which I don't even know where is my next stop.

All these years, since I was 16 years old, I am trying hard to change my luck and my fate. I see drastic changes in my life. But I still find living my life is the most difficult thing to do right now!

I would not talk about death, because that means no turning back point. So hopefully I am still strong enough and face the challenge in being a sole survivor.

The only motivation left for me is ' My life is difficult but many others is facing worst life than me'.

I am thinking of taking leave to relax my mind and focus to what I want to achieve but since this is new job a bit difficult.
Let me just give my best shot within these 6 months and change my turning point right after.

I have many photos in my camera but I just don't feel like uploading because I just not in the mood.