Meeting Others

My problem not eating properly still not solve.

I am trying my best to eat ligher as possible so I don't have to throw up.

Many invitations from friend to break fast together , I don't have choice but to reject with my own reason.

I am sorry... I am not well!

Meeting and eat people meaning I have to force myself to eat like normal people.

I can't or I will be miserably throwing up right after.



I am traning myself to slowly and at small portion.

Tonight I boil my own gochujang mushroom and carrot soup.

So far so good and hope it could digest well and give some nutrition to my body.



I want to live healthily!

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No appetite

My mood swing at downward level.

Yeah! I couldn't eat... whatever I eat end up throwing out back.

Yup! sounds grosssssssss!!!

But I am the one experience this and its hurt!!!!

1. My throat hurt

2. I feel disgusting

3. I feel sad because I waste the food

4. I am afraid I am bulemic

5. I am afraid I get the stroke due to the pressure of throwing out

6. I am hungry but afraid to eat

7. i don't have energy and feel tired

8. If I die because of starving...so sad ...

Now... I will pray to God to help me to live.

I will do more good thing so God don't punish me like this.

Can I make a wish now???

Below are my wish....:)

I miss Seafood Spagetti

 

I want to eat shrimp omellete at Malacca



Me if my coffee not to my taste..... yup! coffee lover...once a day black coffee..but since Fasting month not a drop coffee down to my throat... Oh! I mean hot long black coffee..missing my coffee..isk isk isk



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